harbinger
you smiled at the beginning
close enough to me
but out of my reach
your quick witted words
making me me laugh
at first
your face was marble sculpted
and i remember telling you
you were beautiful
you smiled
crooned at my words
mockery of affection
you were built of hercules
towering above my frame
i took it as a sign
that yours were larger than mine
to hold me better
it was not
your eyes were cloudy
and your words cryptic
i took it to be the mark
of intellect
when my lack of
couldn’t see lies
you told like rotten chocolate
the ones you gave me
on our anniversary
wrong day
saccharine and sticky
stomach curdling
you were a mythic
fairytale i rewrote
our story out of plays
where instead of the lover
you were the harbinger
all along
