harbinger

you smiled at the beginning

close enough to me 

but out of my reach

your quick witted words

making me me laugh 

at first

 

your face was marble sculpted

and i remember telling you

you were beautiful

you smiled 

crooned at my words

mockery of affection

 

you were built of hercules

towering above my frame

i took it as a sign

that yours were larger than mine

to hold me better

it was not

 

your eyes were cloudy 

and your words cryptic

i took it to be the mark

of intellect 

when my lack of 

couldn’t see lies 

 

you told like rotten chocolate

the ones you gave me 

on our anniversary

wrong day 

saccharine and sticky

stomach curdling

 

you were a mythic

fairytale i rewrote

our story out of plays

where instead of the lover

you were the harbinger

all along